Part 168, Self-Hatred and Anger are the Opposite of the I AM Presence
by Kathryn E. May, PsyD on 06/11/13
Now, Dear Ones, let us continue with yesterday’s discussion. We told you about the Big Lie - that Love makes you vulnerable. Our response to that idea is that it’s nonsense. The opposite is true: Love makes you powerful, and likely to join with others, which makes you even more powerful. Now let’s examine why so many people feel helpless and vulnerable.
During the process of development throughout childhood and adolescence, the brain continues to grow. As it does, the optic nerve lengthens, and the distance from your eye to the operating center in your brain becomes greater. However, if you have experienced trauma, confusion, painful feelings, they register along the optic nerve channel where the pain is stored, along with the sense of the insult - the people, places, ideas and images which caused the pain.
When the difficulty occurs early and frequently, a corollary connection occurs from the place in the brain along the optic nerve where the pain is registered to the lower (reptilian) brain, where the fight or flight response is generated. With repeated experiences of fear or pain or both, the channel to the lower brain becomes a major pathway, a trauma superhighway which then comes to serve as the primary response channel. If used a great deal because of emotional conflict in the child’s environment, the fight or flight channel will become the primary response to any strong emotion, any intense experience, negative or positive.
This explains why some people are afraid of commitment, for instance, or turn away from a loving relationship as if it would cause them terror. Their brain and emotions are primed to respond with an adrenaline-charged fear response to anything that arouses emotion. They may even respond to the loving partner with rage when they are actually being considerate and thoughtful. This is confusing to the partner, and in some cases will make them doubt their own motives and intentions, even when they know they were being loving.
With years of “emotional training” - the experience of fear in response to the behavior of the adults around them - the child grows naturally into an adult with brain circuitry programmed for fear and the resulting behavior, anger, rage, aversion and fear toward anyone who ellicits strong feelings, whether negative or positive. If you are one of those people, or you are in a relationship with one, know that there is a “cure,” but it is certainly not medication, which will do nothing to rewire the brain.
If you are in a relationship with someone who matches this description, be aware that it is not a trivial matter to correct it. Behavioral training approaches the problem backwards - dealing only with the response, not the cause. The work that needs to be done is the rewiring of the brain. This takes determination and character - to remain mindful every minute of every day in order to rework how you use your brain in response to life’s events. This is the way the Visual Centering works, by changing the original pathways to a more adult-centered and Heart-centered response configuration.
As you have practiced your yoga meditations, you have learned to breathe and focus on your Heart center. Now you need to create a new channel in your brain to wire in your intended changes. It is the pathway of optimal functioning, when the information travels through the eye, all the way back to the center of the brain without interference, to register and be processed where all comes together - breathing, seeing, hearing, taste, touch and smell, and above all, intuition and body intelligence. At the same time, you will activate the pineal gland, which increases your ability to connect with Us. Here in the center of your brain, you are able to process the information in a neutral state, without undue emotion.
When you establish this balanced center position as your standard operating procedure, as they say, you will bypass the fight-or-flight connections which have been causing all the problems. You must then begin a rigorous practice of refusing to use the old pathways (refusing anxiety, rage, disgruntlement, and all forms of fear). In doing so, the old channels will begin to dissolve and disappear - if you never use them! The new channels, from the center of your brain to your heart, will replace the old reptilian bypass, and you will eventually find yourself in the fulness of Love, expressing joy in every breath. This is the achievement of the I AM Presence, the powerful connection with your Higher Self and Us.
You will need to clear away all old blockages along the way - the part of the process which Kathryn teaches - to create a smooth pathway for the information. This we cannot teach you on paper. It must be done with the help of the Visual Centering videos and the teacher’s feedback. Kathryn is now training several people to teach the technique, which will help all of you to prepare for your coming Ascension.
Now, let us add a bit about the practical use of this clearing and centering technique. You are aware that we have been encouraging you to do your clearing work now, in preparation for the new era. This means that we wish for you to take the stand with yourself that you will eliminate all old connections to fear and anger. Yes, it is indeed possible to live a life without fear, and it is possible to control your emotions to the extent that you never find yourself in a state of extreme upset or rage toward another.
The perspective you gain from operating in the center of your brain allows you to see in a new way. You will have the palpable sense of your own destiny, as well as the destiny of others. You will see that the current details of life are often not what they appear - there may be long-term contracts or profound personal lessons to be had from even the most dreadful experiences, for you and others. There may be events unfolding that are beyond the scope of your current Vision, but if you ride it out, the Truth will reveal itself eventually.
Most importantly, you will maintain your loving connection to Us, and We will sustain you through all challenges and difficulties. Your job is to remain steadfast in Faith and to transmute every interaction, every feeling into Love. This is the True Way.
You will all be given opportunities every day to exercise your I AM Presence, which will always reveal itself to you with feelings of peace of mind, deep fulfillment and a sense of belonging to the One. You will never be lonely, you will never need to be vengeful or “right” and you will have no fear of death, of losses, or of yourself. We have especially stressed the overcoming of anger, because it is an emotion which causes most of the most traumatic discord in your lives, and it has a terrible boomerang effect. You are developed enough along your path to see that you do not approve of irrational rage as part of your repertoire. You may even have learned to disguise it from yourself and others by calling it something else, but you know in your hearts that when you do something vindictive or mean, you feel terrible afterward.
Here’s the rub, as our dear Shakespeare said: feeling terrible about yourself leads to wanting to correct the problem. Your old familiar strategy is to berate yourself with more anger! This continues a cycle of self-doubt, self-hatred and fear. The fear is now about not trusting yourself, not feeling safe in your own skin, feeling shame about your mistakes, and you are off and running again.
In order to avoid the terrible unpleasantness of self-blame, you must instead convince yourself you are Right. Your vengeance is warranted, self-righteous, even God-given! (Remember the televangelists who were disgraced by sexual scandals and money scams? They were all loudly proclaiming their own righteousness, weren’t they?)
Do not fall into the trap of self-hatred. It is the toxic, destructive opposite of the I AM Presence. No excuses. Your poor self does not deserve a beating, no matter what your past mistakes or current difficulties. In doing so you have usurped our position as your Creators and put yourself in our place. YOU are not worthy! YOU are stupid! You are playing God, Dear Ones. We would never treat you that way, but you insist you know better than We do, and you proclaim yourself worthless. We object. Your portrayal of Us is a travesty!
We want you to replace the anger and self-hatred with Love. Notice: Rage and self-hatred always go together. Rise instead to a higher level of vibration where you can communicate with Us, breathe the breath of Love we send into your mouths, into your soul. Reach for your connection to your Higher Self - your I AM Presence - which puts you directly into our loving arms. Do this every moment of every day, until you know the God within you, and that God is Love.
We wish you peace.
We are your Mother/Father God.
Via Kathryn May, June 11, 2013, 10 pm.
During the process of development throughout childhood and adolescence, the brain continues to grow. As it does, the optic nerve lengthens, and the distance from your eye to the operating center in your brain becomes greater. However, if you have experienced trauma, confusion, painful feelings, they register along the optic nerve channel where the pain is stored, along with the sense of the insult - the people, places, ideas and images which caused the pain.
When the difficulty occurs early and frequently, a corollary connection occurs from the place in the brain along the optic nerve where the pain is registered to the lower (reptilian) brain, where the fight or flight response is generated. With repeated experiences of fear or pain or both, the channel to the lower brain becomes a major pathway, a trauma superhighway which then comes to serve as the primary response channel. If used a great deal because of emotional conflict in the child’s environment, the fight or flight channel will become the primary response to any strong emotion, any intense experience, negative or positive.
This explains why some people are afraid of commitment, for instance, or turn away from a loving relationship as if it would cause them terror. Their brain and emotions are primed to respond with an adrenaline-charged fear response to anything that arouses emotion. They may even respond to the loving partner with rage when they are actually being considerate and thoughtful. This is confusing to the partner, and in some cases will make them doubt their own motives and intentions, even when they know they were being loving.
With years of “emotional training” - the experience of fear in response to the behavior of the adults around them - the child grows naturally into an adult with brain circuitry programmed for fear and the resulting behavior, anger, rage, aversion and fear toward anyone who ellicits strong feelings, whether negative or positive. If you are one of those people, or you are in a relationship with one, know that there is a “cure,” but it is certainly not medication, which will do nothing to rewire the brain.
If you are in a relationship with someone who matches this description, be aware that it is not a trivial matter to correct it. Behavioral training approaches the problem backwards - dealing only with the response, not the cause. The work that needs to be done is the rewiring of the brain. This takes determination and character - to remain mindful every minute of every day in order to rework how you use your brain in response to life’s events. This is the way the Visual Centering works, by changing the original pathways to a more adult-centered and Heart-centered response configuration.
As you have practiced your yoga meditations, you have learned to breathe and focus on your Heart center. Now you need to create a new channel in your brain to wire in your intended changes. It is the pathway of optimal functioning, when the information travels through the eye, all the way back to the center of the brain without interference, to register and be processed where all comes together - breathing, seeing, hearing, taste, touch and smell, and above all, intuition and body intelligence. At the same time, you will activate the pineal gland, which increases your ability to connect with Us. Here in the center of your brain, you are able to process the information in a neutral state, without undue emotion.
When you establish this balanced center position as your standard operating procedure, as they say, you will bypass the fight-or-flight connections which have been causing all the problems. You must then begin a rigorous practice of refusing to use the old pathways (refusing anxiety, rage, disgruntlement, and all forms of fear). In doing so, the old channels will begin to dissolve and disappear - if you never use them! The new channels, from the center of your brain to your heart, will replace the old reptilian bypass, and you will eventually find yourself in the fulness of Love, expressing joy in every breath. This is the achievement of the I AM Presence, the powerful connection with your Higher Self and Us.
You will need to clear away all old blockages along the way - the part of the process which Kathryn teaches - to create a smooth pathway for the information. This we cannot teach you on paper. It must be done with the help of the Visual Centering videos and the teacher’s feedback. Kathryn is now training several people to teach the technique, which will help all of you to prepare for your coming Ascension.
Now, let us add a bit about the practical use of this clearing and centering technique. You are aware that we have been encouraging you to do your clearing work now, in preparation for the new era. This means that we wish for you to take the stand with yourself that you will eliminate all old connections to fear and anger. Yes, it is indeed possible to live a life without fear, and it is possible to control your emotions to the extent that you never find yourself in a state of extreme upset or rage toward another.
The perspective you gain from operating in the center of your brain allows you to see in a new way. You will have the palpable sense of your own destiny, as well as the destiny of others. You will see that the current details of life are often not what they appear - there may be long-term contracts or profound personal lessons to be had from even the most dreadful experiences, for you and others. There may be events unfolding that are beyond the scope of your current Vision, but if you ride it out, the Truth will reveal itself eventually.
Most importantly, you will maintain your loving connection to Us, and We will sustain you through all challenges and difficulties. Your job is to remain steadfast in Faith and to transmute every interaction, every feeling into Love. This is the True Way.
You will all be given opportunities every day to exercise your I AM Presence, which will always reveal itself to you with feelings of peace of mind, deep fulfillment and a sense of belonging to the One. You will never be lonely, you will never need to be vengeful or “right” and you will have no fear of death, of losses, or of yourself. We have especially stressed the overcoming of anger, because it is an emotion which causes most of the most traumatic discord in your lives, and it has a terrible boomerang effect. You are developed enough along your path to see that you do not approve of irrational rage as part of your repertoire. You may even have learned to disguise it from yourself and others by calling it something else, but you know in your hearts that when you do something vindictive or mean, you feel terrible afterward.
Here’s the rub, as our dear Shakespeare said: feeling terrible about yourself leads to wanting to correct the problem. Your old familiar strategy is to berate yourself with more anger! This continues a cycle of self-doubt, self-hatred and fear. The fear is now about not trusting yourself, not feeling safe in your own skin, feeling shame about your mistakes, and you are off and running again.
In order to avoid the terrible unpleasantness of self-blame, you must instead convince yourself you are Right. Your vengeance is warranted, self-righteous, even God-given! (Remember the televangelists who were disgraced by sexual scandals and money scams? They were all loudly proclaiming their own righteousness, weren’t they?)
Do not fall into the trap of self-hatred. It is the toxic, destructive opposite of the I AM Presence. No excuses. Your poor self does not deserve a beating, no matter what your past mistakes or current difficulties. In doing so you have usurped our position as your Creators and put yourself in our place. YOU are not worthy! YOU are stupid! You are playing God, Dear Ones. We would never treat you that way, but you insist you know better than We do, and you proclaim yourself worthless. We object. Your portrayal of Us is a travesty!
We want you to replace the anger and self-hatred with Love. Notice: Rage and self-hatred always go together. Rise instead to a higher level of vibration where you can communicate with Us, breathe the breath of Love we send into your mouths, into your soul. Reach for your connection to your Higher Self - your I AM Presence - which puts you directly into our loving arms. Do this every moment of every day, until you know the God within you, and that God is Love.
We wish you peace.
We are your Mother/Father God.
Via Kathryn May, June 11, 2013, 10 pm.
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